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The real score

 

I love kids but I am not really into men. To be honest, I don’t even enjoy sex that much and most of my sexual encounters have been a bit hit and miss. One thing I am sure is that I want a child but not a man. I am rapidly approaching by mid-30 so I should really try to get pregnant, but I am not sure how to go about it. Perhaps I should just have a series of one night stands and try to get pregnant.

I am not concerned that my baby would not know his or her father, I would be the main person in the child’s life and that should be enough. My friends from London escorts say that I am selfish but I don’t agree with them under any circumstances at all. I am looking after number one which is me, and that is really all that matters, isn’t it?

I started a relationship with a married man I met at London escorts from https://www.londonxcity.com/escorts/ a few years ago. At first it was a bit of fun for both of us. I wasn’t looking for a serious commitment and neither was he. At the time I had a fantastic career and ran my own company. A husband and children were mere glancing thoughts but eventually things changed. I started to get really broody and wanted to start my own family, and I felt envious of my lover’s family. Some days it really got to me and I used to get angry with him when he talked about his family.

Eventually, I asked him what the future was for a relationship. Did he want to marry me and start a family, or was I just a distraction to him? It took him by surprise and I soon realized that he did not want to leave his family, nor did he want a new wife and other family. It ate my up inside side and made life very intolerable. I soon realized that I had done all of this to myself. My choices were simple, either through him out or get pregnant accidentally.

He still carried on talking about his family, and I got it into my head that all men were insensitive creatures. I decided that I wanted a baby but not a man. A couple of weeks later I came off the pill and decided to pursue my plan of getting pregnant by accident. To my surprise, I fell pregnant during the first month so I put my plan into action. I broke off with my lover, and did not tell him I was pregnant. He was shocked and could not believe it. The pregnancy went just fine and I gave birth to a lovely little girl.

The third stage to my plan had been to tell my former lover. He was married with two and I knew that they had wanted a little girl. It had never happened and this was part of the reason there was so much friction in his relationship. In the end I decided not tell him, and I stayed away from his family. My daughter is 10 years old and today she met her father by accident. I saw it in his eyes that he realized that it was his daughter but I walked away. That was enough pay back for all of those times that he had spent talking about his family.

My mom was a single mom so I have always known that single motherhood is not such a big deal. Personally, I want baby but not a man and I know it would work out okay. Fortunately I am living in the United Kingdom so having a baby will immediately entitle me to a council home and heaps of benefits. My mom had the same experience and we have even checked out all of the benefits that I would be entitled to. Now, all I need to do is to get myself pregnant.